Small talk:I never loved him

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As a cult survivor, I often feel like I need to catch up with everyone else. My social growth was stunted, and my relationships were based on how much I loved God and followed the rules. But I digress. By the time I started making real friends, I was an adult, and everyone my age was getting married, having kids, and so on. I felt the pressure. So, I started dating a guy who lived in my neighborhood. I never loved him. For over five years, I was hoping something would spark between us, but it never did.

His love remained one-sided as I went through the motions.

My time ran out when he proposed to me before going overseas to perform for the troops. I remember feeling literally sick at the thought of moving in together. When I broke it off, I felt so guilty—I had taken several good years of his life. He was a good guy; he just wasn't my type. OUFF! The guilt ate at me for years, even after he told me that I shouldn't feel guilty and it was a wonderful journey. Well, at least I didn't wait until we were three kids, a mortgage, and 20 pounds deep into a loveless relationship. Am I right?

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MOXIE